First, sorry for creating any impression that "tomorrow" meant "first thing tomorrow morning". I didn't intend to leave you hanging when I started the project last night. I just got sleepy and the blog post got long, so I broke it up.
Ok, without further ado, back to my journal entry...
I called my mom and told her I said "no" (I was overcome as soon as I heard her voice and I think she thought RRL was dead or something because all I could get out at first was "RRL...he...RRL...and I... ) and RRL called my roommates, who were waiting with the Willises and other friends for us to come home with exciting news.
My mom was really encouraging. She just listened as I sobbed and then she calmed me down. She never told me I was wrong or making a bad decision. She just told me to look at RRL. To forget everything else and look at him. When I did, the Lord filled me with an amazing love and a complete assurance about wanting to spend my life with him. (I'm not exaggerating when I tell you that I can still vividly remember that moment- I still clearly remember the visions of our future family that flooded me in that instant.)